Naisha's Journey...: "No Power Over you"...... Set yourself free

"The moment you asked for forgiveness, God forgave you. Now do your part and leave the guilt behind." ~Joel Osteen

We need to learn that many of our mistakes were made for a reason, and mistake is a mistake we all make them. I want to begin by also saying and focusing in what Joel Osteen said "LEAVE THE GUILT BEHIND" we focus to much on what we did wrong before but not in what we are doing today to make a change and learn from what we did. Just be willing to admit to them and they would be forgivable.

The way I view them not as mistakes but as blessings that were given to me to learn from, to become stronger with everything that life has to offer. This to me I take to be able to face the most of difficult situations, as I get into that of the most difficult times and in where I learned to become stronger and stand up for myself was when I was in middle school and I too was bullied.

I was 12 years old. There was a girl much more taller than me, I was and still am skinny, I was new in the area and of course in the school I did begin making friends and some of the girls were very sweet with me. Now when I met her she came up to me and wanted to be my "Friend" I was very sweet with everyone and wanted to get to know more people. Once another year went by of us being friends, she became more aggressive with her words, began putting gum in my hair, pushing me around and being with group of her own friends to go near my other classes and yelling "B****" to me and saying they were going to hit me. Now I was scared, thinking they would jump me and thought they would never leave me alone, there were days in where I wanted to die, I wanted to leave and never come back, I felt so alone, I felt as no one would ever understand me. I felt that if I told my family they would laugh because I didn't stand up for myself, because my family always been one in where they told me "If someone ever try to bully you or hit you, hit them" now I know that's easier said then done.

Anyways this went on for weeks and weeks and I went into counseling in my school and finally decided to say something because it was to much for me to handle, Once I went in and spoke with my councilor I felt a bit relieved, I felt as I would be much safer. Of course it was a lie, my councilor spoke with her and had me to go in as well, we spoke about the problem and guess what happens after we left????? yes your right she started all over but much more worse she began pushing me against the locker and yea I'm sure you could guess the rest. Finally I stood up for myself I told my family and I begin with telling her off, as she bullied me I bullied her, I didn't have anymore thoughts of suicide I begin having thoughts of wanting to hurt her bad, as she was hurting me.

Now I want you guys to see what I am trying to share with you guys with me telling you a very difficult point in my life in where I wanted to just tumble down and never get back up. Once I got my family in the situations things begin to get much easier for me. I want you guys to do the same, as scared as you are never let anyone have the power over you, always be better then them, if you are bullied never hurt others to get back at them trust me it won't make you feel better its just making be at there level and you don't want that. Always get help even if it is family, friends or even at school, teachers, therapist, etc anyone you do trust, someone you know won't make the situation worse like mines did. Bullying is never the right thing, yes I said bullying is NOT the right thing to do.

If you are wondering how is she now, let me tell you. She has two kids, but is not happy, and she friend request me on my Facebook a couple years ago, I said it friend request me lol now I gladly admit I didn't accept it not only because I want to leave the past be the past and but that was a point in my life I want to leave it closed, I am happy where I am now and what to leave it at that. I have succeeded in many areas of my life that I am sure she is still at the level she was before.

I don't regret accepting her as a friend before, because I know what I offered was sincere and I know that she didnt appreciate it but I did because it made me see many things in my life. I have grown to be much better than that and I am proud of what I have achieved since then nsince , as God has my savior, I am proud to say he has helped me become the woman I am today. So just remember when you are faced with a similar situation, stay strong, and stand up for yourself and never let them have the power over you...